I feel lied to

So my husband and I have been trying for a baby for two months now and last night we were budgeting ( something I do monthly or bi monthly to make sure we are on track because I am always afraid of money issues ) so any way here we are talking about budgets and all that. And we were actually better then we thought. He then looked at me and said I think we should hold off on trying for another year ! Like excuse me you weren’t saying that this morning or for the past two months

And keep in my mind our communication is great ( at least I thought ) we didn’t just jump into starting to ttc we talked and made sure we were ready but now this ? I get the just wants us to be at the best spot finically. But that’s not what even pissed me off the most as we were taking a romantic bath continuing our conversation I ask him so what if we got lucky and I am pregnant since we have been ttc the past two months and he started beating around the bush and I said just spit it out because I knew he had something to say and he really had the audacity to say most likley have an abortion! He said that’s not his final answer but I don’t care I really thought we were on the same page but obviously not. I feel completely lied to he kept going on about wanting a baby so bad and how he was so excited to start trying and even when he said he wants the abortion if I am he even said but I want kids and I am just like obviously you didn’t and I looked at him and asked why the fuck would you keep trying if you felt this way and he said because if felt good ! I just feel lied to completely taken back and heartbroken