My son

I was shocked when I first saw the plus sign. Then I got nervous about telling anyone because “what if something happens again?” I was happy to feel the first headache. Surprised when we were told the heartbeat was actually strong. The first ultrasound was honest to god the biggest relief of my life - seeing your little frame that was just beginning to look like an actual baby. I couldn’t believe you were a boy but I was so excited. But then I felt you kick. And every kick since then has made me feel more joy than I have ever known. And even though internally I may be screaming “what if I fail?” I don’t think my heart could let me down like that after feeling all the love I already have for you.

Happy six months in my belly, W. I look forward to all of the emotions I’ll be lucky enough to experience for the rest of my life, all thanks to you.