Low self esteem during pregnancy

My last pregnancy was so different. It was so easy and I felt so radiant and strong. This time around I have excruciating back pain, sore legs striped with varicose veins, reflux, and exhaustion. I just feel so unattractive and undesirable. I try not to complain because it just makes me feel more pathetic but man this is so hard physically and emotionally. Then I feel so guilty feeling this way when I know deep in my heart that I’m doing the most amazing thing of growing another healthy and strong baby.

Just needed to vent 😞