I want to scream at my housemates

Okay. So I need to rant otherwise I will scream and say nasty stuff to my housemates I’ll regret.

So. Last night one of my housemates asked me to go out to some cocktail bars with him and one other housemate tomorrow (which was today). I agreed and said yeah I’ll come!

Last night I also went out with another friend (got a bit drunk) but woke up with no hangover. So fast forward to a couple hours ago and what do I see on snapchat? They’d gone without me. They didn’t let me know they were going. Nothing. It’s not just 2 of my housemates. But also one of their boyfriends! So not only am I so fucking angry that they just left without me. They’re telling me that it’s my fault because I didn’t join them later. I can’t walk anywhere alone at night due to a fucking van pulling up next to me and the driver getting out and sliding open the door. I fucking legged it home and have crippling anxiety now about walking anywhere in the dark alone. They know this. And they have said ‘we didn’t exclude anyone’. Exfuckingscue me. But when you just leave even though you KNEW I was going to come. You fucking exclude me. I’m done. I’m so fucking done with their catty, nasty way in which I am always excluded. We’re not just housemates. We’re friends. But not anymore. You’re done. All they mean to me now is someone who is on a rota to buy toilet paper.

Rant over. Sorry about the language and how uneasy it is to read. I’m just angry and cba with checking over on it with the grammar.

Edit:: I was invited out last night to go with them tonight

Edit2:: @erin they’re moving out June/July time. But because we are uni students I can’t exactly replace them til the contact ends