excited and scared all at the same time

so my husband and I have been trying for a baby for over two years. weve had countless miscarriages, all equally as devastating and heartbreaking for us both. in all the miscarriages I knew something was wrong. my body was telling me, and sure enough a few days later I would lose tje baby. well im currently 8 weeks 1 day and still feel good. im back from a relaxing holiday, I have a new job which doesnt involve shift work and on Tuesday ive been scheduled in for a re assurance scan. as so on as I booked this the nerves came flooding in. my first loss we found out at the 12 week scan, 2/3 I miscarried naturally, 4th at an early scan. so now I feel like I can't get excited until this little squishy is well and truly planted in. to top it off mt husband is being the most perfect caring man....but its making me feel worse.