Emotional Rant

I usually don't post but I just have a lot on my mind I don't tell people i have pcos and I would love to be a mom. my fear is I am not able to have one. I try to be strong and not let anyone know how I feel but it's a every day struggle. Everyone I love around me is either pregnant or have kid(s) and I'm so happy for them but at the same time so jealous, can't help but think when am I even going to be a mom ? sorry for the rant just need to finally get it off my chest