Feeling left in the dark.

I see so many ladies with ultrasounds before 12 weeks. It seems like a normal occurrence! I’ve had one miscarriage before and I’m finally pregnant with number 1, and at my first appointment (which was 7 weeks) all they did was take my urine and ask me questions. They told me ultrasounds we’re out of the question that early and I have to wait until 12 weeks. I want to see my baby too, and I feel like so many women get great care/ info at their first ever appointment and I got nothing 😔 idk I guess I’m just not excited at all. I feel like the odd one out. Am I the only one?