disappointment . advice?

so I know.. trust me I know.. this will sound so selfish. but I have been looking forward to going to Florida with my boyfriend since we got together which was in 2013. it's now 2018 and we just graduated.. I have been waiting on this for so long and I just found out he is going to Florida and I cant come. we have been waiting on this forever. I'm so disappointed. I was forced to go to Florida with my ex boyfriend while I was with my current boyfriend. but for some reason it's just impossible for us to do anything together. I'm so frustrated I want to scream and cry. I'm so livid

I know I probably sound pathetic and selfish.