Avoiding Mother’s Day

Did anyone else try to avoid Mother’s Day at all? I opted to work a double at work and it still stung when I thought about it. I wept and cried in the bathroom. I wailed in the office while I was alone. Just when I thought I was starting to heal the holiday just ripped the scab right off and I felt all the emotions again as if I was back in the doctors office leaning about our baby’s death. How can I feel such a sadness still? I don’t understand. 😭💔