Discouraged

I am so happy for those who are getting their BFP and i don’t want to come off rude or bitchy but....

I was laying here scrolling through the feed seeing everyone’s BFP and Mother’s Day announcements and pregnancy announcements and maternity photos and was just sobbing uncontrollably and just felt lost empty and heartbroken

Again—- so happy for you guys just sad for me

Me ⬇️

We have been TTC officially since December but October and November we weren’t trying but not preventing. NOTHING i never knew how hard t actually was to get pregnant or how much TTC took a toll on you mentally and emotionally.

I’m still praying for this month though my cycles are super irregular longest was 83 days shortest was 23 days, i am 5’0 was 212 pounds and needed to lose weight currently am at 182 still not where i need to be but trying to see if losing the weight will help me get regular like i used it be years ago. Below are my personal results so far...

I’m hoping May is my month I’ve been testing with opks as of the 8th got my period 4/25/18 I’ve been testing twice a Day morning and night

The top two fell off but are back on now hey were very faint lines i don’t think i ovulated on CD 18 it was dark by not as dark or darker than the control line but who knows

Ugh.... anyway end rant