I’m 20. So I’ve always wanted a baby. Like for the longest! Literally. But I’ve just come to realize I don’t actually want a baby.. when I think of the responsibilities and you have to put a hold on things, financially support them and stuff it just scares me. I have an entire life to take care of. And birth? Omg scares me so much lol. I’ve had pregnancy scares before and when I actually get I to reality like “if this test is positive I’ll shit bricks” I would be happy but more terrified if anything. I realized I don’t actually want a baby. But I believe God is going to give me one with the right person. I don’t think he’s gonna give me a baby with someone who I will not spend the rest of my life with and its just bc I have strong beliefs that no sex until marriage etc. (obviously I have slipped from temptation) but just bc I know better and “wanted” a baby I feel like he’s not gonna give me one until I’m set and married.