Heartbroken

I should have been prepared for this, but I wasn't. I have all the symptoms of being pregnant. Every one I told how I was feeling echoed that. When I missed my period I called my doctor because I'm somewhat irregular so I wasn't sure if my at home tests were accurate. They wanted me in for a blood test. They just called. It was negative. I'm devastated. I tried to be ready to hear a no. I really did. But I was so ready for a yes. I was so ready for it to be me.

The doctor had no explanation for why I'm late or getting this way. They tested my thyroid and it's fine. She told me that if my period didn't start before day 45 to call back and make an appointment, but didn't tell me why. Now I've just got more questions and no baby on the way.

If you're reading this thank you. I don't really have anyone to cry to about this and I just needed to tell someone. Anyone.