When He's Looking At Other Girls

Hey ladies...this may be a long post. and not. looking for the smart ass answers either. .....just kinda need someone to talk to. so I'm start off by saying. ..im married almost a year now. and since I've got married I've put on some weight. MD I do not at all feel good about my body. I'm one of those who all the food I eat goes to my tummy. and I have no butt. not that much anyways. and honestly my boob's are crooked lol. well like I said I don't feel good abt my self. at all. and I'm not neccicreily fat but I'm not in shape either.... well like most my man does like to look. and he makes it so obvious. like yes it hurts my feelings that he looks but I kinda don't mind it. unless he makes it very obvious like he always does. and it's the "sexy" skinny girls with the bigger ass and slim flat stomach ..like y'all know what I mean. and I've always been jealous I guess you'd say bit it's not bc I don't want him looking or whatever it's more so bc I'm scared he's gonna one day find someone he likes better than me. if that makes since. IDK I just need to get this out I guess. and he knows it hurts my. feelings and I will say he has gotten a littler better but still does it. and it's not when I'm not looking it's when I'm right there talking to him and he breaks his neck to look. and then it upsets me of course bc it makes me feel like that's why he wants me to be. I know he's gonna look but is it wrong that it hurt my feelings when he does it and makes me feel even worse about my self?