rants.

Since October 22, I've been so excited to bring my little girl into this world. I've wanted nothing more but to have her in my arms. Here it is, a month before my due date and I feel nothing. I'm not excited, I'm not nervous. I don't get excited when I feel her kicks, or see her on camera. In fact, I feel absolutely awful for bringing her into this world. I feel so selfish for wanting to bring someone into this world when I can't support myself. Being 19 & living on your own is no joke. I want nothing more but to go back and live with my mom sometimes. I thought I would be able to do this, I thought that this is all I've ever wanted and now I just feel so emotionless about everything. I have quite a few friends with children, but they all live with their parents and have a great support system. My fiance's parents cant stand me and refuse to support us in any way, and my mother really can't considering shes supporting an abusive alcoholic. A lot of this is really off topic but I have no one to rant to..