Suicide lifeline

Every day for the past 4 months I visit the suicide prevention lifeline (the online chat.) There has not been a single day where I have actually got in contact with someone. Some days (the worst days.) I wait hours as the number count down before someone is available to speak with me...some days I only wait a few minutes. But honestly I think the main reason, maybe the most comforting reason, that I keep going there, is to see the number of people who are doing the exact same thing as me....waiting by their phone, feeling the exact same way as I am...and in that moment I can truly see that I am not alone...and if you understand this, you’ve probably been a number on that countdown with me...I guess what I’m trying to say is....You are not alone....We are not alone;