what am I?

so when i was younger i remember always playing Snow White with my cousin (she was the prince) and she would technically have to kiss me to wake me up. i don’t remember much of it since I was around 4 or 5 but i remember making her come back to kiss me each time. it wasn’t anything serious (just a little pop kiss) and we were kids. as i began to grow up, i always had crushes on boys but i also thought girls were really pretty and attractive too. they made me nervous and socially awkward. it wasn’t until 7th grade where i actually began to have a massive crush for my best friend at the time. at first i thought it was just nothing but the more i was with her, the more i wanted to kiss her and be with her all the time. we would always have sleepovers and we’d always cuddle, hold hands, and do things that normal best friends don’t normally do. (including flirting) so i remember one night i tried to lean in to kiss her and she noticed it but she got kinda shocked and i faked it by saying i was asleep and didn’t notice anything.. she then left to a different school (since she was a year older than me) and i barely got to see her again. she told me she was kinda into girls but she never told me what she felt about me, and to this day I still don’t know. i am now 16 (almost 17) and i masturbate frequently to girls (and boys, but mainly girls) and I’ve had a few attractions to the females in my share. ive never openly admitted it to people, although people are very supportive when i say i might be bisexual. i have a boyfriend and I’ve had 2 other boyfriends in my life, but i think i might like girls too ? idk