Don’t know how to feel!

I guy I really like technology raped me. Of course I liked him and we were doing stuff but I refused intercourse. I wanted to with him but wasn’t ready to just yet. I told him this before we did anything with each other. I told him I didn’t want him to go inside of me many times before actually doing it. After the went in all the way he asked if I wanted him to stop. Not like I didn’t say it many times before he went in. He stopped. I honestly don’t know how to feel. I still care about him yet I’m so angry for what he did. I don’t hate him. Kinda feels like it might be partially my fault since I let almost everything go on but intercourse. Is this actually rape?