Scared shitless

Am I the only person who's had a baby got pregnant again and then be just as terrified to give birth as I was the first time? I hit my second trimester today and my nerves are all jumpy. All I keep thinking is god in 6 months I'll be repushing a baby outta my coochie. you'd think since I've already done it I'd be cool right? Nope 6 months is not enough time to prepare my vagina for the torture I'm about to put it though. Side note my 4 year old also told me I was getting fat today and he was proud of me I cried like a little bitch today has definitely been one hell of a emotional ride.