Disappointment

Well after a week of assuming I am pregnant, I am not. My sides still hurt, but not like it was in the first place. No more nausea. The headaches stopped. Kept taking pregnancy tests thinking I am and even my colostrum started back up again and what do you know, Nothing. My grandma thinks I should get back on the pill to get back regulated, but never will she understand that losing a child and trying to find happiness again is very hard. I’m starting to give up. I think I’m starting to hallucinate most of the time and I miss my baby. 😢 at this point I’m just expecting my period by the next few days. Losing hope.