So upset😭😖

So I’m 17 and 11 weeks pregnant with my first ever child I live with my boyfriend and we do good most the time but man is this hard a lot of the time I wanna just cry I don’t have my incense at all and no job rn I’ve slacked a lot of my life with growing up i don’t wanna grow up it scares me and now that I’m pregnant I have to and I should forever ago I just need some friends rn 😕💔 can anyone relate ??