Cutting my hair ?

My husband and my relationship is a little hard and basically i feel like I can’t be myself around him and that I feel like his changing me into something I’m not. So today I took a big step and I stood up for myself and I told him that I hate who he has made me and that I love him to death but I am going to work on becoming who I was and not who he is making me. (That doesn’t mean I’m leaving him). I am really proud of myself.

Anyway, I am having trouble on where to start, he has told me in the past that he hates how clingy I am and that I’m overwhelming and blah blah blah and I have toned it down immensely. I have stopped messaging him unless he is messaging me and i hardly call him, he calls me and now when he goes places I don’t usually ask to go anymore even though i would love too.

I know this all makes it sound that I am in a horrible relationship but please keep in mind that I’m just saying the things that are bothersome to me and I haven’t explained about how wonderful he can be.

I’m currently seeing a therapist because I often feel trapped and not myself anymore. I am depressed.

Back to the title, I want to cut my hair. It’s SO hot here in Texas and it’s thick enough I get headaches and the only problem is that I’m afraid that I won’t like it. I’ve had a pixie cut all through high school but I was about 20lbs lighter then, well not that I’m 21 weeks pregnant. I was like 28lbs lighter then.

I’m basically just wondering, would you go for it? I miss my short hair but I’m so afraid I’ll look boyish now or whatever. Here’s me now

Here’s me with short hair.

ALSO I’m not wanting to cut my hair because of my husband as like some type of defiance. He told me before a pixie cut would be cute, I’ve been thinking about doing it for a while.