jealous, green eyed monster

So my cousin is 21, my first miscarriage, she was pregnant and had an abortion. She got pregnant for the second time and had her baby in December.

This morning she texted us a list of baby stuff she needs. Felt like that was nuts she just had her baby, maybe it was for something else considering that she didn't say a word to us.... nope she is pregnant... 😣 trying for 4+ years has made me not as happy as I should feel.

I truly hate feeling jealous because I just feel like I am just being flat out selfish.

I have a daughter but she always asks me for a sibling and other people always ask when am i going to have another child. 😣

Not only that with in the 4+ years I have had 3 miscarriages that still to this day don't have an "explanation" of why I miscarried.

I need to hear some stories, comments, nice words, some advice...