I’m so worried and sad...

I feel like my body is failing me. Today I am supposed to be 7 weeks pregnant. My HCG is rising slowly and my doc is not too optimistic as my levels are not rising as they should be.

This is my fourth pregnancy. I have never had a miscarriage before. I’m so upset that my body is failing at doing what it is supposed to do. I workout and eat healthy the majority of the time.

My HCG was rising normally in the beginning as was as follows:

3 weeks 4 days: 39

4 weeks 4 day: 574

6 weeks 4 days: 5,011

UPDATE: 7 weeks: 7,678 (6 weeks 2 days by doc measurements)

In between the 4 week draw and 6 week draw my doc did an ultrasound and saw a gestational sac measuring 5 days behind but no yolk sac or fetal pole. I should be 7 weeks today but by their measurements I am only 6 weeks 2 days.

Everything I read is negative. I’m scared of what is going to happen- I’m scared of the physical and emotional pain. I am not an emotional person and do not handle these type of situations well. I can’t think of anything else right now and am anxiously awaiting my numbers from today’s draw. I have 3 other kids to take care of but this is completely consuming me and I don’t know how to get past it. :(

Update: since my HCG has reached above 6,000 my doc wants to do another ultrasound now. I am anxiously waiting to see if anything has changed.