I am mentally & emotionally drained

After four going on five years of trying for our second child i have told my husband I can’t do it anymore. I have literally put myself into depression thinking it may be my fault etc. I am dealing with a lot in my life right now & I need to take care of me first. Maybe after I get my anxiety,depression & iron under control we can try again but for now I can’t. I’m sending baby dust to everyone of you lovely ladies! Keep me in your thoughts and prayers if you don’t mind this has taken a toll on me!