He is not the same person

I miss my old fiancé he who genuinely cared how I was, who would never hurt my on purpose or by accident. Who cares what others say about me , who would care about my happiness and well being . Who made an effort to have sex with me and look nice for me . Who didn’t yell at me . I know it takes two people for a relationship too work and I know a good part of our issues stems from me . But I truly miss the honeymoon phase . I’m stuck with the man who couldn’t give two shits about me . Who goes out of his way to belittle my religion after I beg him to stop. Who can’t bother too shower or brush his teeth for me until I refuse he comes into my bed because I’m sick of Washing the sheets everyday I miss he man who just wanted to make me as happy as I made him. Who cares if I was sad and crying not just tell me to get over it , the man who’s promise meant something not just another lie. The man who didn’t CONSTANTLY lie to me, I know it will get better we have phases in our relationship but I truly with all my heart miss the man I fell in love with. ( when I say who would never hurt me on purpose or by accident I’m not saying he beats me or I’m in an abusive relationship, he would just never hurt me in any way in the beginning like he does now)