How to Heal From Abortion

I am not ready to show who I am but I have had two before (one when I was a teenager and another as a young adult, unfortunately the second pregnancy had complications and it was ectopic so I'm not sure if that counts).

Even though the last one was 3 years ago, I still live with the pain of it. Especially now that I am in a great marriage and my husband and I are on month five of TTC, I am excited and nervous. I know that with faith, love and happiness we will have our family when the time is right.

My question is, how does one heal from the pain of having an abortion? My first one I have gotten past but my second one...I still feel terrible. Has anyone had this problem? If so, how did you cope with it or heal from it? I always feel like I am a terrible person for it.