I can’t take it...💔

I can’t take the heartbreak anymore. How do you even escape the pain of not being a mother?! You’re constantly reminded of it! Pregnant women everywhere. Beautiful children everywhere. You hear kids laughing, then you go home to a silent house. You want so badly to take a pregnancy test, but just know you’ll end up with a blank test. You want to “give up”, but there is no way to actually “give up”. I’ve also tried to “give up” and focus on other thing’s for a whole year and guess what, I’m still childless. “It will happen when it’s meant to” isn’t fucking good enough! I want it now! I’m sick of the wait and heart ache!