Update: I am okay physically...not mentally. I confronted him about the knife incident and he said I was exaggerating 😐. By the end of the conversation I was so overwhelmed that I’m like maybe it was a joke idk.

He is exhausting...I don’t have energy to complain anymore. He is constantly around. I went to the lake just to walk and have peace. I used Snapchat to take a picture of some geese...an hour later he’s on the trail to “surprise” me. He said he’d been watching me. (He does some surveillance sometimes for his military position)...so I know he’s been tracking me for a good 30 minutes before I saw him.

I park in the same space at work everyday. Well he decided to move my car to another lot. I called the cops and filed a report and my co worker dropped me off at home. Later he drove me to my car. He says I need to be careful. That I have daily habits which makes me a target.,.Im not sure what type of target. I was so drained that I didn’t say much. I don’t know if he’s being crazy or if he was actually trying to be helpful. Now I’m paranoid and park somewhere different everyday and go to different Starbucks in the morning . But now I don’t know if he’s following me and plotting to teach me another lesson. It’s overwhelming at moments.

Besides the incidents...he is a great guy. Opens every door. Never yells. Great with my family and friends. Compliments me daily, shows lots of affection. We go out a lot and have fun. He’s very smart and the conversations are easy and interesting. He is everything I ever wanted. But he is slowly treating me like I am “his person”. Idk something is odd...and he has a reason for every behavior. I feel like a nag, melodramatic, delusional or unappreciative.

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The other night I told my boyfriend that my back was hurting. We were both laying on our sides. He rolled over and grabbed something from his night stand. A few moments later I felt something pressed against me...and instinct said 🗣DON’T MOVE!!

I felt behind me he a blade pressed against my lower back. I just said “you’re so weird; leave me alone”...I was woke for about 3 hours before I could sleep.

A week or two ago someone was parked in my space in our condo complex. I called him to watch me from the window because the van was beat up (overall very suspicious for our neighborhood) and the driver was passed out with the engine running. Once I got in the house he grabbed his gun to go confront the guy. I begged him not to... it he did anyway.

The guy wouldn’t wake up so we ended up calling the cops. I wanted to make sure the driver wasn’t about to OD.

My boyfriend also breathes in my “energy”...he looks at me with too much passion. He tells me it’s too late to leave. He will kill me if I ever cheat. He follows me around the house room to room. Pops up at my job. Text me wya...then shows up.

Some of his “cute” behaviors or things I used to shrug off are starting to scare the living fudge out of me.

He keeps saying I’m stuck...I don’t know what that means.