Getting My Hopes Up

I was 14 days late.. and then BAM, blood this morning. on the 15th day. Why? I keep getting my hopes up! No period symptoms at all. No sore breast, no bloating, no PMS gas, no PMS runs..

I am sooooo, tired of hoping and praying for nothing to happen. I'm so tired of feeling something that isn't there.

I've gotten implantation bleeding every time I've been pregnant. And that's what it seemed like last month. So I had figured the days, being it was within the ovulation prediction time, I would have been 7 weeks by the time I was two weeks late, yesterday. BF and I thought we saw a line, made an appointment yesterday for next Monday, then today, AF.

I had so many flutters and feeling like my insides were shifting.. just like every pregnancy I've had previously.

I'm just done. My BF and I have sex because we LOVE having sex. Sex for us isn't just about getting pregnant. BUT IT WOULD BE NICE AS MUCH AS WE DO IT!

It's been almost a year since the last miscarriage. and 3 months since the chemical pregnancy. I'm completely out of ideas. Tried Vitex, PreSeed, ACV for both of us, different positions, not peeing directly after, TIME, PRAYER.. What else can we do? Nothing!

Can't help but feel God doesn't want me to have children.