I'm crazy lol

I'm on implanon and my boyfriend and I are in a great place and will be moving on to the next step soon. I know the chances of me getting pregnant with implanon and endometriosis are 0 to none but I keep taking pregnancy test cause of all the nausea and bloating and weird feelings and because I want a baby so bad and it's driving me nuts to get a positive test. I'm not asking a question, I'm just venting lol, I know that I need to be patient and wait.