Feel like a failure

It’s so hard sometimes, whenever everyone around you has the things that make them seem like “they have their life together”. A nice/new car, a job that pays decently well, etc.

I’m 20 years old, and up until I got pregnant driving scared the hell out of me, so much anxiety. As soon as I found out I started studying because I knew I would need my license for myself/my baby. Well,i got my permit after like 2-3 months and now with my permit I’m able to practice driving. But up until the last two weeks no one has helped me, so everyday I’ve been able to drive I have been doing so. I was doing pretty good, you know, little bitty stuff I needed to work on but things would get easier the more I drove. Well now I’m almost 37 weeks and I went to take my drivers portion today and failed. When I know so many people who passed the first time.😞

Me and my husband have it good, we have a nice house(for our first house), all of our bills are paid, we have everything our sweet baby boy needs, we’re fed, our little doggy is fed, we have air conditioning in this hot killer weather, and he has a moped so he can get back and fourth to work since I was laid off when I got pregnant-therefore haven’t been able to find a job.(no rude comments about his moped, we both love that thing and it’s a life saver with no car.❤️) So much to be thankful for- and I am so incredibly thankful. It just sucks that I can’t pass this one thing to get what we need-my license.☹️

Driving just gives me so much anxiety I’m proud that I can drive as good as I do without normally freaking out. It could be worse, but it sucks because I feel like until I get my license I can’t provide for our baby the way I should be able to.😢

Like if I don’t pass it in July 2nd( if I don’t have him before then), I’m gonna have to have my mom come pick me and my husband up from the dang hospital and I feel like a burden..