Just a rant, needing to vent to people who might understand.

Hey all, I write this out after crawling into bed at 8:30 pm cause I am just so done with the whole day.

Back story, this pregnancy, the only labor progression I have seemed to have had is whenever I am at my in laws house. I lost my mucus plug there, had prodromal labor AND now two bouts of false labor, I dropped there, etc. so this whole last week, we have stayed with them, hoping to go into labor as it seemed that I was more comfortable there then my own house.

Since being here, my two other children haven’t listened to me at all, like at all. No exaggeration, they give me the, “yeah, we will see what oma/opal has to say to that” look and then run to them and the grandparents are “helping me out” by taking care of the kids so I don’t need to stress, but as soon as the kids become too much of a handful, they give them back. They both have gotten sick, (dd has a fever and diarrhea while my ds is congested beyond belief and lethargic), my brother in law has gone above both my and my husbands heads and tried parenting my kids, and my niece and nephew will not stop asking me, “when on earth are you going to have that baby?!” ( I am 40w4d today)

My mother in law keeps saying, “just drink some caster oil, it worked for me when I was pregnant with my third”, and saying she is going to slip it into something I’m drinking or eating. And there is ALWAYS someone home to babysit me and it is driving me bonkers!!!

On top of that, I feel like I’ve developed a yeast infection, called my ob today to see what I should do, and the nurse told me she highly doubts I have one if today is the only day I’ve been experiencing vaginal itching and the feeling that my vulva is inflamed and that if it still is going on by Monday to call again and then they will do something. I know VERY well what a yeast infection feels like, I’ve had plenty with my ds pregnancy and before that. So now I’m going to have to suffer with severe itching, now chaffing, and a slight burn, for the entire weekend while 40-41 weeks pregnant! As if I’m not already uncomfortable!

I keep receiving daily calls and texts asking how I’m doing, is baby here yet, when are you going into labor, why is your induction date so far away, yadda yadda yadda. Thank you everyone for reminding me that I am indeed still pregnant! I wouldn’t have remembered unless you check on me relentlessly, all while making me feel like once again, my body is failing to progress into labor on its own.

Oh! Also, had an appointment today, asked the doctor to do a membrane sweep because I’m 2cm and want to see if it will help, she tells me she won’t be on call this weekend, so she won’t be delivering the baby if I go into labor, so she checks my cervix like normal and says nothing has changed, claiming she moved a round in there a little, to which I whole heartedly don’t believe because it felt like every other cervical check I have had and she spent just as much time in there as she normally does (1.5 seconds if that). I get that it may not be your favorite aspect of the job but still!

I’m just so done. So stinking done. My baby is posterior, my family is planning on coming out monday, regardless on if baby is here by then or not, and staying with us, and I just need to cry.