Battling 2ww

I'm currently at 8 dpo and starting to wanna take a test already af due on the 16th I just wanna know already I do this every month. I tell myself every month I'm not going to do it I'm not doing it this month..but every month it gets me about this Time and just gets worse. Any advice on how to stop this just to add this is my 10th month ttc so I'm really antsy lol