Sad after 20 week scan. And words would be greatly appreciated.

Hi, I went to my 20 week scan yesterday. I was excited to find out the sex as we planned a family gender reveal afterwards.

Baby was measuring in proportion but all below the 5th centile. It was measuring only 17 weeks. They said my placenta was shaped more like a ball rather that a pancake and was 5cm thick. It should only grown 1cm every ten weeks. They could only find one uterine artery and it had ‘notching’ (later read this could mean a few things including pre-eclampsia).

They said they were concerned baby won’t grow now as this is very small. I was offered an amniocentesis to rule out any disorders-to help me decide on termination. I said and if I don’t do the amnio? Do I just let things go as far as I can and hope baby grows? But she said it wouldn’t seem likely.

I’m absolutely heartbroken to say the least. Cried all day and night. Never slept. I was given no hope whatsoever.

Felt baby move last night for the first time, it was like a little message to say baby’s here!

Has anyone went through anything similar? Xxx