I wish that my boyfriend would understand I'm so sick that's I'm not in the mood to do anything. I never get any sleep & I'm exhausted. I clean the house all day to try to be productive, but it still feels like it's not good enough. I wish we didn't argue over stupid things that we shouldn't worry about, it's frustrating & I don't want to be stressed out. I know he's going through shit too, like this was completely unexpected, but being mad all the time & arguing about nothing is a waste of time. I feel that he's putting the blame on me for every single argument we have which isn't the case... But I still apologize because I want it to end, even why I do apologize it's like it has no affect. I just want everything to be okay again. I know it will be soon, I'm hopeful, it's just a rough patch right now. Sorry I just needed to vent lol I feel somewhat better now