Okay so I’m pretty emotionally in tune with myself. Therefore I know what makes me mad/sad/happy etc and what I need to do to either get there or get out.

One of my ticks is spending too much time with people.

My mom passed in January, and my dad asked me to stay home for the summer. I was super reluctant because I simply like to be by myself and I know that’s what I need to emotionally heal.

Well all I do at home is watch my sister. And it’s getting to the point where I spend too much time with her and my dad. My sister is getting to the age where she’s old enough to do multiple things by herself but my dad won’t teach her because our mom passed away (which seems more toxic to me tbh)

I start noticing things and then little things make me tick until I explode. But I swallowed my pride because my dad needs me, so I’m living at home.

Today I kind of reached a breaking point because I spend all of my time watching my sister, while my dad works. So on average I spend 6 days out of the week taking care of my sister.

And I love her to death, I would take a bullet for her. But Im beginning to spend too much time with her and my dad which causes me to be irritated, lash out, cut myself off from them.

Before everyone gets rude and calls me selfish. I’m a very young girl, I’m not 100% emotionally okay and I cannot take care of someone else without fully taking care of myself right?

I wanna tell my dad to get a baby sitter for a couple days out of the week so I can have some days to myself. Because each day I don’t take time to myself and spend it with other people the more my emotionally health is stunted.