Af due 17th need strength

Michelle • Hi iv 3 boys and would like a girl. I`m 36 now and all my friends think I`m mad. I can`t bring myself to tell mum we r ttc she will hit the roof, but I`m so broody I don`t care xxx
After reading about chemical pregnancies gonna try and hold off till Af date. Iv had 2 mc, and I have 3 boys so aiming for #4. I really really want to test tho. Help me resist!!!! Iv already convinced myself I'm pregnant with a boy this month, I think I miscarry girls. Why am I so stressed!!! Baby dust to all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx