Dear Gertrude

Three months i’ve waited for you to tell me how you felt deep inside, and i’ve finally gotten that. i’m glad that we’re talking again, but i fear that if i forgive you completely, that i’ll have my old feelings back. I know that you’re hopeless, and feel like i no longer have feelings for you but i still do and they’re still pretty deep. i feel like giving you a second chance, but i don’t want any more pain and i’m stuck with my emotions. i can’t tell you that i feel the same because of what we’ve gone through as a newly broken up couple. i have unresolved feelings towards you and i imagine you have some towards me too. i can’t express how much my heart hurts even more knowing that you’d even consider wanting me back. i still love you and if i could, id go back in time and tell you all the things that i know now. i wish you knew about my feelings, but i can’t take any more pain and i need to grow as me now. i hope some day, we could take our feelings and just build a strong friendship. it sounds stupid, but i’ve wanted nothing more than to still have you in my life. i hope that someday, you and i can look back and laugh at some of these things.

sincerely,

a hopeless romantic.