Dear anonymous

We’ve been through so much. We’ve been growing for each other and with each other. What once was a teenage romance is now something more serious. I am in love with you. I have been in love with you. You know I have anxiety and I think your the only person to actually accept that. You’re here for me. But sometimes you lie. Sometimes you’re not completely truthful. Sometimes you get really pissed off and tell me I’m ridiculous. I know sometimes I don’t handle things well, but my anxiety is always with me and always has an effect on me. I hope you love me. I hope are plans and dreams are true to you. I hope we can make it through this life together and happy. I’m just trying to make sure I don’t get my heart broken again. Like it always is. I’m not just talking about with guys. I mean my whole life. Family friends. Random people treating me like I am nothing. No one has ever treated me like I am more than just a girl. I need to protect my heart even from you. I’m sorry sometimes I’m “ridiculous” but I can’t help it. I try to. I try so hard to be good enough, to be everything. I try to be that girl that everyone likes, but I know that I am not. I have always believed that if you love someone, act like it. Show them. Even if they don’t show you. I’ve always tried to be the bigger person. I’ve always forgiven. I hope that you love me because this is who I am.