Am done now

After nearly 4 years 5 miscarriages and finding out I have high NK cells and 6 months of letrozole am giving up . My relationship has changed so much I have changed so much am moody depressed and sex has changed. My life has been on hold for years i can’t do it anymore I so wanted it to happen . My boyfriend doesn’t have any children so I feel like I’ve stopped that for him . Am 42 he’s only 31 . Thank you all you ladies from baby bump you have been a great support when I needed it , I wish you all the happiness in the world and bfp very soon .