confession time

hey I'm 15, I made a big mistake couple months back.. I had unprotected sex with this boy not know he got herpes.. I went to the school nurse by myself and I got a check up cuz I saw a bump on my vagina and it hurts really bad.. now every boy I'm with I have to tell them no sex or u can't go raw and they be like why and I have to come up with some lie.. I just don't know how to live with it rn I'm in extreme pain I can't even tell my mom😭.. I can't even have scissors either a girl or get eaten