Super embarrassed

So I’m on vacay, and there’s such a hot barman that’s been flirting with me all week and I finally got to kiss him tonight and I totally embarrassed myself.

He’s black, I’m white, and he has the most gorgeous lips (I’m literally so jealous ffs) but when he kissed my I just felt like he sucked my lips in genuinely like a hoover. I was so embarrassed I couldn’t even make eye contact, I’m going to do it again, is he a bad kisser, or are our lips just not working together? I don’t have thin lips at all, they quite full but they just got swept up in his gorgeousness lmao. Help a girl out. Please don’t hate.