Possibly pregnant nd freaking out!!

Update!!!!

So I took a test and this time negative I was upset but it just means I get to keep trying!!

Soo I suffer with pcos like many women on here and really need some advice I’m having pregnancy symptoms and ridiculously scared to take a test I don’t want it to be negative but will be soo scared if it’s positive I’ve had a miscarriage and what they call a late miscarriage (I was 5 1/2 months) it’s been 3 years since I lost my son and am dying for a baby anyone have any advice....p.s can’t really talk to my boyfriend about it as he isn’t great with this stuff please please Any advice would be helpful