Heartbroken

I feel like I can’t breathe. I can’t stop crying and I’ve cried so hard I threw up. My boyfriend of almost 9 months and I broke up. I love him dearly. I had a bad week and in a moment of weakness I broke it off with him because I didn’t want to leave loose ends. I really want him back. I have never loved anyone nearly as much as I love him.

Update: I have reached out to him and keep offering options that’ll let us work it out but he says he “can’t handle the responsibility of being together and working on himself”

And I broke up with him because it felt like he had no time for me but I really think I was planning something horrible and wanted to end it with him so he wouldn’t get dragged down by it.