Maybe it’s the fact that it’s summer fling season?

So. Warning. This is gonna make me sound like a heartless cold person. But I promise it’s not who I am. I’m usually a good person, stay outta relationships. Then summer came. Let’s start with my best friend’s cousin. (let’s call him G for future reference). He’s really funny, and he was kind of my guy best friend for a while, but then we ended up flirting. It hasn’t changed much, still flirting for a while a day, and I’m starting to think I’m developing feelings. It feels a little toxic, but I like it that way, honestly. And then there’s my ex. He really cares for me, and all my friends can tell, and we were gonna get back together but I decided to stay out of a relationship for a while to just see how the summer goes. He’s been hanging out with all these girls now, and I don’t know anymore if he’s the one I wanna date again. And then there’s the other. He’s really sweet and funny, and we are supposed to go on a date soon, but I don’t know if I still want to. Because of G. I think I like him but I don’t know if he likes me back or if he’d ever want to date me. I wanna say I’m just his booty call but I also really wanna see the best in him.. this is getting long and i know i got myself into this mess, but yeah if anyone has any advice, I’ll take it. I. Am. Desperate.