Feels Like I'm Drowning

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For the past few months I've been having these seriously dark depressive periods, where I just can't function. Ive been dealing with depression and anxiety for a few years. But for a while I was doing reall well. But now, it feels like I'm on autopilot. I feel everything and at the same time I'm just numb on the inside. And unfortunately I'm the type of person who's too stubborn to reach out to friends and family for help. The past couple weeks has been pretty bad and I just don't know how to pull myself out of it.

How do you make yourself feel better when you just feel empty and are just trying to stay afloat?

My birthday is this week and I don't want to feel this shitty for my birthday 😭