Anyone else lying to yourself?

I have had 3 losses this year and as my third loss draws to a close and we are approaching the time when we can try again, I am finding that I am lying to myself about my history and my losses.

I minimize my first two losses, like Oh, I have had three losses but the first two were so early so it shouldn’t affect anything in the future, a 6 week loss is early, not a big deal, something was early wrong with implantation, a chemical pregnancy won’t affect my odds either, and so on and so on.

Fully knowing that all my losses count and could mean something in regards to my fertility, but I feel more calm if I lie to myself and tell myself that the early ones don’t matter so much.

Anyone else doing this?