Feeling lost

Soooo I have 2 cousins who have just given birth and another 4 that just announced their pregnancy.. I’m very happy for them however I find it extremely rude for them to individually pm me privately to see how I’m going with ttc.. maybe not a big deal but I have been ttc for over a year now :(

Anyway I’m 5 days late with af and I’m petrified to test incase I get a negative :(

I’m not getting the typical af symptoms but I do feel bloated sore boobs constantly tired and last night I had the worse nausea where I couldn’t even keep my eyes closed felt like I was rocking back and forth. I’m about to go crazy as these symptoms could be anything and it’s frustrating me.

I don’t tell people how I feel but I’m so exhausted of being disappointed each month 😞😭