Still trying to have faith that I will get my bfp soon

It’s so heartbreaking when you have that feeling that you might be pregnant only to realize that af is coming early... like I’m truly happy for women who have been ttc for so long and God finally blesses them I’m just praying that it will finally be my turn... I wonder if I’m the only one who feels this way, I been ttc for over a year and every month I get this feeling and my bf be so happy of the thought of us having a kid and nothing happens it’s just really takes a a lot out of you mentally and physically....