17 weeks and dying inside

I’m 17 weeks and I am already getting so uncomfortable. I still have morning sickness through the day and throw up at times. I can’t stand wearing pants none really fit anymore anyway and I feel so suffocated in my chest when I sit how will I breath soon. I don’t know how but I have gained about 6kg despite not being able to keep anything but toast down for the most of the first trimester. I thought this was supposed to be the nice easy part in the middle. I think I’m getting depressed from how exhausting this is. I have booked my hair in to get done tomorrow to try perk me up but I don’t know how I’m going to sit there so long and with all the smells and I feel like I’m going to leave feeling like crap anyway.

This mama just needs to cry 😭